Reira Akaba (![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png)
soft_focus) wrote2015-06-12 12:02 pm
soft_focus) wrote2015-06-12 12:02 pm
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I feel THEM..! I have to eat their energy..! [He doesn't know how it works-and honestly trying to explain it feels more and more futile, at this point. It's already happening-and he doesn't want to cause trouble, not now.]
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[He blinks owlishly, before deflating.]
Geez, you really do have it bad...guess not thinking about it wouldn't help much...
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[Which, realistically, is worse.]
...I know Kurosaki wants me to be able to hunt. And I knew how to do that, [he cries softly,] but that feeling...it's different even from wanting to chase people..! It's different from making someone feel scared..!
And I don't want to get used to that like I did hunting..!
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[Is Sawatari out of his element? Hell yeah he is. All he can do is sink down back to all fours, lying down amidst what's left of the plushies (the result is a sort of half-nest of stuffed animals, with his wing acting almost like a blanket) in an attempt to get more down to Reira's level. It doesn't quite work.]
I know...I know. Getting used to that kinda thing...even if it makes things easy on you, you end up...
[He closes his eyes, huffs, then opens them, looking a little more determined.]
Well then, you're not gonna get used to it!
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And...]
...that doesn't make it feel less bad, though.
[...It doesn't make him less scared.
He just knows, knows for sure, what's coming.]
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[His chin rests on a plush, but it doesn't make his face look any less solemn.]
I mean on one hand, it's hypothetically a good thing that it doesn't get easier, but...doesn't change how it feels in the moment. Can't really say anything about that.
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...I just wish he would listen, [he says quietly.]
...he won't even listen when I say I trust someone. Like I can't even do that right.
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[Huff.]
Like I said before, that guy's really stubborn...
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[He puffs up indignantly, but it honestly looks like he's trying to make fun of Kurosaki by posing.]
Gotta keep up that cool war-survivor image, you know.
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...he just doesn't want me to talk to anyone he doesn't like.
...it's not fair.
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[Pout.]
Yuto I get, and I guess I can see Yuzu because she looks like his sister or something...he keeps giving me the stinkeye over her for some reason now, it's annoying...but I don't remember Yuya doing anything! It's totally not fair! It's not like Kurosaki makes perfect decisions himself!
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[Oof.] He gets like that about the arcade too..! Even though he thinks it's dangerous, he's still got a key to go there too.
He doesn't even listen when I try to talk about why I have a key anyway... [It appears their conversation has become 'being mad about Shun'...but really, it seems the boy could use it.] I'm not even fighting, or being told I have to fight..!
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[Shingo pouts.]
Haven't you had that thing since even before I came here? If you've been doing fine this whole time, I don't see why Shun's bothering you about it now. Or has he always been giving you a hard time about it?
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He also gets more mad about if I go to the arcade at all, I think.
[Honestly.] ...he says he doesn't trust the 4th at all, even though he's on his side.
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[And then his face falls flat.]
Or was, whatever. He keeps insisting we're not allies anymore or some junk about leaving the Lancers or...something. Bleah.
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...even though a lot of the things people said were bad about where I lived at home were mom's fault, [he mutters.]
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[He scratches his head.]
I dunno about what he's mad about, but haven't you already told him that it's Ms. Akaba's fault, or not?
[Yes, he's still referring to her with respect. She is in his social sphere, after all. :T]
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[Well. Reira just sighs.] ...'s not my fault mom brought me from a bad place like that... ...and it's not niisama's fault that she wanted me to listen and fight and do all the things just like the soldiers wanted me before...
...it's not his fault I didn't go to school, or have a birthday either, but he never listens..!
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[That question doesn't need an answer. Instead, Shingo just blinks owlishly at all the backstory Reira's dropping on him.]
Huh...well, that explains why I haven't seen you before, at least...
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...I've been here... ...a lot longer than I've ever known niisama.
[BOY HOWDY.]
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