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WELCOME TO YOUR PRIVATE CHANNEL, CCC-REDHORSE. FOR SECURE COMMUNICATION, USE 134.64.202.69 * CCC-REDHORSE has joined 134.64.202.69 <CCC-REDHORSE> This is Reira Akaba! <CCC-REDHORSE>**I'll try to answer you but sometimes I'm busy or sleeping, so I don't think about the message right away.

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[ Can she really blame him? So much has changed since she got him to join. ] U-uh-huh... S-sorry, p-please don't h-hate me...

...I'm not going to hate you.

[....] ....But remember that Robbie was the one who wouldn't say sorry to Tsukikage. And he's the one who won't listen even when we say Tsukikage isn't mad. He's the one who left, even though Tsukikage is hurting more than everyone else, [she adds quite firmly.]

...Robbie might care, but that doesn't mean he's right right now.

...And until he can see when someone is hurt, instead of pretending they're not, I'm not going to believe what Robbie says about a lot of things.

Especially the things that I know he's wrong about.

But, but daddy s-said similar th-things too...

[ He knows they were talking about Robbie and Tsukikage not being okay with each other before, but that didn't change that they both currently had similar views on Ron and the Fourth God. ]

[........Somehow unsurprising.] ...Did Tsukikage say why though?

B-because I'm too young and d-didn't know it a-all and e-everything...?

...That's not the same kind of not trust.

... [She sighs.] Tsukikage's just mad because he doesn't like it when you and I are doing things that we could get hurt with. But...

...I don't think Tsukikage remembers that the 4th is a kid too. ...Adults think kids can't do lots of things. I learned that after a while while I was here, [She explains.] ....It doesn't make a lot of sense... ...but it's what they think, and it means that even if we know what we're doing, and we're safe, they don't always agree.

...And Tsukikage never agrees, when it's about us.

But daddy w-was right, I d-didn't know... I don't w-wanna be... b-be be bad even if it's r-right a-anymore...

[ Tsukikage is protective, yes, but he believes in him too. ]

That you were in danger?

...Being in danger doesn't make you bad. [There is a pause. She wanted to help him keep this promise. She really, really did.

...But she doesn't understand.] ...Ron.

...I'm really trying to help...but... ....if I don't know why you think you did something bad to Tsukikage...

...I can't help make it better either. ...I don't want you to have to break your secret promise though. So...

...I need you to believe me-the 4th isn't going to make you do bad things. He'll never make you do bad things.

Not unless it's the only way to save someone.

I, I can't, I can't t-tell, I p-promised... I'm s-sorry, I really, I'm r-r-really really sorry, nee-san... P-please f-forgive m-me...?
[ He's trying so hard to keep the promise he made to Tsukikage, he doesn't want him to be disappointed... but it's difficult not to tell Reira right this moment. ]

W-would y-you still l-l-love me even if- if I wasn't f-following G-god anymore...? [ He doesn't know if it'll come to him not following him anymore, but he needs to know the most important part first. If Reira won't love him anymore, there's no way he'd be able to leave Fourth. ]

[....She'll forgive him. Absolutely. But even as she tries to answer, she's finding tears in her eyes. Even then...]

...You...

...Even after all the stuff we did together, and for the 4th... ...even after we stopped the fog, you'd leave..?

[Even as she says it, she knows she shouldn't have. She hugs Ron tighter, and shakes as she answers.] ....I wouldn't be mad. And I'd...I'd still love you-and that's a promise.

But... ...but if you don't want to be the 4th's friend any more...

...You have to be the one to tell him why.

I, I don't know wh-what I wanna, I j-just... If you'd h-hate me if I leave I w-won't, okay? Promise? I p-p-promise...!

[ He's terrified of her leaving him. It hurts enough that Robbie might be gone (he won't know yet), but the thought of losing either Reira or Tsukikage was mindnumbingly scary. ]

I-I know, I, I'll th-th-think l-l-lots and b-be r-r-really s-sure what I w-wanna d-do...

I already promised that I wouldn't hate you..! I just...

[She sniffles, and for all she's been trying-trying to say that everyone can think what they want, and do what they want...

...She doesn't want him to go.]

I just wish everyone would stop being mad at him...

I- I'm not, not m-mad at him, I j-just don't kn-know what to do...

[ He hugs her, holds on to her as tight as he can, even turns partly into liquid so she's really close. ]

Aaa-AAAH- [RON IT'S REALLY HARD TO HUG YOU LIKE THAT-

...But fine, she's still hugging.] ...just think about it. ...Really hard ok?

S-s-s-sorry...! [ He turns solid again, on her lap this time. ]

I, I'll th-think a-about it h-harder than I've e-ever thinked a-about an-anything b-before, p-promise.

[...Well. That's the most she can ask for.

...And...maybe...] ...Okay.

...

...Hey, Ron?

...You said you didn't know how a 'god' could be friends, right? ...Why don't you ask him, then? ....Ask him about if he wants to be friends more than he wants to be someone more important.