I didn't say that. [She says coldly.] That's not what it was because of..!

I know it was wrong. And I knew then, too..! [she adds, voice cracking a little.] Even if I couldn't think right, I knew it was wrong..!

But I can't change what happened! [she shouts, the radio shaking in her hands.] ...All I can think is, 'if this was somewhere else, I would be dead', or that someone else, and everyone else, has to feel worse than dead..!

And I don't know how to fix it, even if I make sure to never break a rule again..!